I’m being discerning.

Clear-eyed vision.

Constructively critical of the details.

Calling it like I see it.

I call it focus.

It’s fixation.

I couldn’t see when my attention had been hijacked

by what was missing.

I couldn’t see where I was focusing on

what wasn’t working.

What still needs fixing.

I told myself it was about excellence.

It’s about progress.

About being closer to right.

I was fixating on the flaw.

Instead of focusing on the gift.

I was amplifying what’s missing.

Instead of noticing what’s already here.

Like noticing the typos in a post and

missing the fact that it moved someone.

The loop of attention aimed at absence.

Effort spent on the flaw instead of the form.

What helps me break that loop:

What is here?

What is closer to right?

What is awesome?

Focusing on awesome doesn’t mean ignoring the broken.

It means honoring what’s already built.

What we focus on becomes what we build.

Awesome is included.