I thought we were aligned.
Same goals.
Same direction.
Same page.
Then I felt distance.
Drift.
Disconnection.
I told myself
it was timing.
Or bandwidth.
Or logistics.
I called it proximity.
It wasn’t.
We were in repetition
without alignment.
I pulled back.
Afraid of being “too much.”
Afraid of overdoing it.
Afraid of repeating
what should already be clear.
Like skipping the sync
because we “just talked,
we’re in a good place.”
Even though things still feel
misaligned.
This is the loop of avoidance
framed in a lie
I sold myself
as trust.
The right question is:
Am I practicing alignment
that makes nearness
possible?
Alignment is a moving target.
It takes repetition
before it finds resonance.