My fear tells one of two lies:I will lose something I think I have,orI won’t get something I think I want.Two stories.Different details.Same …
Beyond Comparison
I am impressed when I see others do it.Motivated by it.Their wins. Their clarity. Their pace.I’m comparing. Grading.Measuring my version against …
Mine the Gap
It’s easy to treat the gap like a to-do list item.A problem to solve.An inefficiency to address.I thought my job was to close it.Fast. Clean. …
If I Am Being Honest
I tell myself I’m being honest.I believe it.I even feel self-righteous about it.Until later.When something doesn’t add up.When someone reflects …
Winning the Wrong Game
I’ve had several conversations recentlythat were a reminder thatwhat I notice,doesn’t tell me somethingabout what I’m looking at.It tells me …
Comforting a Symptom
When I’m cold,a heated blanket feels like an answer.It might even be an answer.The warmth is real.The relief is real.For a moment.In the moment,it can …
Answering the Wrong Question
I spend time trying to fix what I am feeling.Discomfort.Restlessness.Confusion.Urgency.I want relief.That part was honest.I am missing that I am …
The Hunter and the Decider
I think about AI in a simple way.What would I doif I had 1,000 yearsand 1,000 people to do it with?That’s the impact.Scale.Not …
Holding It
I thought I was evolving.I was managing the version of myselfI’d already outgrown.Still tracking it.Still maintaining it.Still keeping it alive.I used …
The Scoreboard Says
I didn’t choose the standard.I know it though.Hit the mark. Stay ahead. Don’t stop.I say I don’t care about comparison.Then why do I keep …
I Know I Don’t Know
I didn’t stop to ask.I followed it.Like it was written somewhere.Like there’d be consequences if I didn’t.Be thoughtful.Don’t be a burden.Have the …
The Version Playing
They entered the room.I entered a role.My voice changed.My pace shifted.My answers explained.That’s the part I want to deny.That I still play a …