I have lost a lot of time to ‘why’.Why did this happen?Why am I like this?Why does this matter?Why is this so hard?Those questions make me feel …
Losing What I Think I Have
One of my fears is I’m going to lose somethingI think I have.My time.My health.A relationship.My money.My place.My influence.Someone’s approval.The …
Missed the Moment
I thought I was being productive.Turns out, I was performing.Performance is a pattern.I thought I was making progress.Turns out, I was managing …
My Dream. Our Nightmare
It was like waking up from a dream.Except I hadn’t been sleeping.I was awake.I found myself in an argument.I found myself already in it.It wasn’t …
The Work Is Less Visible
The work feels less visible.More stuff with fewer artifacts.Less to point at.I’m producing less with my own hands.Outsourcing more.Moving more through …
Demonstration or Performance
I tell myself I'm showing up.Doing the right thing.For the right reasons.I call it integrity.It's image.It looks aligned.It feels clear.I'm curating …
Gratitude is a Verb
It’s easy to feel good.Easy to take credit.I’ve done it.Felt something powerful.Called it gratitude.Called it humility.Sometimes even believed …
Translation Required
I think I’m learning.I’m reading.Listening.Taking notes.Paying attention.Applying what I’ve been told.It looks like growth.It feels like effort.It is …
Tribe Builders vs. Estate Builders
I was building something big.Structured.Secure.Impressive.I called it leadership.It was administration.I didn’t realizeI was designing distance.Not …
Life Precedes Death
I tell myselfI’m being responsible.Planning ahead.Avoiding risk.Managing downside.I call it foresight.It’s fear.I wasn’t awareI was designingfor …